She says:

Well, there's some problems in the previous blog so i changed to this one now. But i feel that there's bigger problem in our relationship. Maybe it's due to us meeting too often. You still don't know how to treasure me. My mother tried to contact the housing agent today. Maybe it's a good thing also. I wouldn't be meeting him too often. You are unreasonable. You are angry that i'm not able to go out with you late because i'm afraid my mother will misunderstand what are we doing. You can't blame my mother for being protective. I did tell you that i can tell my mother i'm out with my friends but i go out with him. But you are the one who dislike the idea. The funny thing is that you are angry at me for your own cause. And when i said that you feel irritated. Yeah. maybe we wouldn't last till the time when you will find the boxer i bought for you. It's not that i'm pessimistic. You are not showing understandings. I've given you chances but it's just that you don't know how to treasure it. I needed your company today but you just played game. I shouldn't have gone to your house. I should have gone home straight home. When i go out with my friends, i shouldn't have told you. This few month makes me feel that i shouldn't tell you everything. Some things you shouldn't know. You really shouldn't know. Yet i wanted to be honest. Never mind i've learn my lesson.

Harun messaged me. He wanted to go to the thursday training. I would of course have to go and show him how to go. Haha.. He's a nice guy. So i cancelled my tuition in the evening. I'll be going training tomorrow. But he wouldn't be my type. Although he's not a Malay, he's a Islam. I don't know if he's flirting only or dropping clues. When i talk to him, i feel very comfortable. But i know the one i really love is you. I told my brother that you dislike me being unable to go out with him in the night and the problems i think arises in us. Guess what's he told me? Take a break and go for the guy for a while. That's when i asked for the one month break but you thought it's a normal 1 month break. I missed you too much at that time because it's during the school holidays. I needed your company. When school starts, i might ask for a month break again. I can also do what my brother says, open my eyes for better guys at the same time and it goes the same for you.

This blog is named since20051128 because ever since that day i am happy that i found this relationship, i endured, i put in effort, i take, i love, i hate...etc. I learn a lot ever since that day. I changed to become more sensitive with words too. I find it good and bad at the same time.