Tomorrow is my last day of exams. Haha.. I'll be able to enjoy after tml. Yay! And i lost my mood to studying.. Double Yay! Last paper always like that. I've been trying to tell myself that: "study is fun"; "Why do i attend those lecture for?"; " My parents relationship are so bad now, Give them lesser things to worry!"; " How much do I want a better life in future?".

Nothing seem to help. I guess i didn't want things as much as i want them when i was taking my "O" level. I like proving people wrong. They look down on me, thinking i'll not do better than my elder brother. My L1 R5 is better than him. Now what? I didn't have anyone to prove it to anymore and i lose my fighting spirit. I didn't love my parents more than how i love them last time? Why i just couldn't bring myself to studying as hard as before. I could say this is not my best. I can do better than this if i want to. What exactly is wrong with me? Well, i could only try my best for the next semester.

I also want to go uni BUT my GPA is so low. Hmm..I wanted to prove myself wrong that having relationship, working and studying at the same time is OK. But is it really too much? Have i really push myself beyond the limits? I wonder.

I feel that i'm not very good in maintaining a relationship. And i'm nv good at relationship. Last time i never had any long relationship because i dun have confident in myself. Well, you could say ever since the start of this relationship, i'm gaining more confident. Because i believe he could accept me for who i am. He is different from all other guys that i know. He has a good sense of humour(if you really know him), he'll not leave me easily. Maybe it's because of his past that makes him treasure me more in the INITIAL part of the relationship. LOL! Damn, i'm so obsess with him now. Haha.. It's ok. Because he's my bf. =)

I'm trying to catch up with my friends or pasts after my exams. Hehe.. I want to make a promise to the wonderful guy who makes a difference in my life: No matter what I'll never cheat on you, never leave you for other guys. =)

Tata~ Wish me luck for my last paper to whoever reads this.