I was thinking why am i not with other guys instead. I could be myself in front of him. I do not need to put on a mask. I could be myself in front of ppl like "sky". But he would find me childish. And would prefer not to talk. =) Even if it is, i don't like to start a topic and he's waiting for the other party to start a topic. Worse of all we have nothing in common to talk. This means we are not meant to be with each other characterisically. I could bullshit and darling will bullshit together with me. This is love; we can tolerate each other's nonsense. Zi Xiang can do it also. But i choose another guy at that time. And the relationship with other guy end up to be a flop because i choose to put it in a railway track of lies and a mask that's not the real me. We make mistakes and learn. During my learning process, i lose many people that i didn't treasure. But the good thing is i still get my gold, darling. Although fishing and games are in front of me, i know he's there for me if i really need him. He cares, loves and will never leave me. Fate made me learnt my lesson before i met you so i would treasure you more than my past. =) I'll never let the one that fate let gives me. We may be complete irony of each other, we definitely still have things in common. =) I do not need to lose my "links" to know how to treasure him.

I've made arrangements for next week. I'm meeting my poly frens on monday, tuesday 2 at AMK wif Zi Xiang and thursday 1:30 at orchard wif Yippie Yappy Yippie Yippie Yap. Heh.. Wednesday and friday with links. Wah kaoZz i can't wait for tml. =)